My happiness is stay with me

Perhaps most of us have heard about this sentence or similar one:

" Never rely on someone for your happiness, because once they're walked out of your life, you're no longer be happy. "

Well, that's the truth dear. Face it! Be brave.

Last few days, it's been a quiet moment for me to think and think and think of what happened in my (love) life recently.

Why is this happening to me? why not me? and the bla bla bla..

You know, finally last nite i got bored with being depress that made me sigh.

Got bored with the feeling like I'm the most unlucky woman in the universe. 

Duh! that's too much.

Then, I'm on my knee, praying

I remember myself saying " Happiness is the matter of the heart. It is what you feel inside. It is your choice."

Then I've found myself smiling.

I'm proudly saying, i CHOOSE to be a happy, fun, loving, kind person.

Because i know how unworthy i am, but HE has made me worthy by His Blood.

Nothing else matter in this world.

"Hey, you may go! My happiness is stay with me."

Stillness

 

My mouth shut, could not find the right words to describe my feelings at this time
I was struck by the painful truth
you never feel the same way that i do

Lost in thought, my biggest mistake was not met you
but it is my assumption about us
there has never been "us"

That time arrived, the present
The last time I saw your departure to that once called 'one private paradise'
I cried to saw you went away
at the moment, I still feel special
but not anymore

You said to me, you have found someone and you're getting serious
I'm happy for you, really
however, my heart needs time to clear your footprints
my days are filled with silence
silence that gave me strength to endure one more day
one more day, and one other day

This is only for temporary.